Saturday, May 9, 2015

Oh this crazy thing called life.......

Well, here we are again, almost two years later since my last post. Wow, where does the time go?!! No really, I keep looking for it, and can't seem to find it! :) One may say I just gave up on the blog idea. But, I never really did; just let this crazy life get in the way & kept putting it to the wayside. But, my thoughts have more been in my personal journals, so, I've still been getting the therapeutic benefits of writing, just keeping those crazy things that go on in my head, to myself (well, there & to the many family & friends who unfortunately get to hear me let it out when needed! :) ). I've always, since a kid, enjoyed writing. Whether it's journaling, in a poem, or finding a way to voice my thoughts out to many of you. It's fair to say that it's always been hard to keep me quiet! Just ask my teachers & family! :) So, I plan to make it a new goal to get back to this regularly. Maybe somewhere along the line, I hope to inspire a few of you along the way. Or, if it's a day I need someone to laugh with, cry with, or whatever it may be, that I can share it with some of you! :) 

So, let's talk about the crazy thing called life & what kind of things are going on in it. Let's just say the last few years, in particular, have been extra tough for a number of reasons. But, we all have these times in life, and obstacles will arise. How we choose to get through them is up to us. We can let it get the best of us, or we can choose to make the best of what it is! Trust me, I realize this is not so easy some days, and that's OK too! Because there is always a new day ahead, when it feels like one was more than you can handle! We've seen a # of losses between Dad, Grandma, Jen & friends. It's made me think all the more about how short life is, and how we need to do our part in making the most of it! Sometimes big changes need to happen in order to continue to thrive & grow, and in our case, that is all too real! Without going in to any reasons why; but, accepting what is our new reality, our family dynamics are all in the midst of big changes, as The Coleman Five will not be quite the same. Doug & I have decided it's time to move on, and get divorced. That darn "D" word...something you never imagine happening to you!! Especially after 27 years together!! But, you can choose to make it mean & ugly, or you can take the high road, and make the best of what is already a difficult situation. Our only hopes are that we can be good friends again, and that each other finds their own happiness! Of course, some out there are not going to understand, or comprehend how we could do this after so long. Some are going to make their own judgments, or maybe create their own story out of it. But, we can only hope the people who love us will respect our decision & trust what we are doing, is the right thing. This is our story, and it's only up to us to live the lives we so deserve! This doesn't mean I will ever stop loving him. He's been a part of me for more than half of my life, and he is the father of our beautiful children. I am grateful for the good man/father that he is, and for the hard worker he's always been. We were just kids when we first started out, and have grown up together, learning how to be responsible adults. We've had many happy memories, that I will always treasure. I truly just want to see him healthy & happy, even if that means it's not with me by his side! We will still be The Coleman Five, just in a different way. I know this is a huge shock to many out there, as we've tried to keep our personal issues to ourselves, as it should be. We all still love you, our family & friends, just the same and know you care about us, and hope the best for us, and the kids. We will get through this, stronger than ever! Just give us time to get past this rough phase, as we transition to our new lives. Who knows what the future will hold?! I just have to have faith that brighter days are ahead, and that we still hopefully have half our lives ahead to soak up all the things this world can bring to us! 

On that note, peace be with you all.....may you all be making the most of life & soaking up all the beauties you are surrounded by in this world! 

3 comments:

Wendy Duke said...

Love you Shauna!

Tiffany Taylor said...

You always inspire me with your strength sweetie, I love the Coleman 5 to the moon and back! Much love and strength to you all!

Shauna said...

Thanks friends....'preciate ya tons!! :) <3